being on the aa2a scheme has given me the time and space to research something that was of interest following my snee snaw project. i've come a long way with the research and at times i have found it hard not to be hard on myself for not being that far on, even though i've done so much work. i might be disappointed in myself, i might be disappointed in something else.
ok. having done the "wow is me" drama queen type activity i can get beck to the practical nature of wanting to work to a conclusion. as the weather is improving i am going to take my research once again outdoors to use two actual swings with the work i've done in the studio. my intention is to make a small film to punctuate the point of the completion of the aa2a scheme.
when i set out on the path of the research i was setting out on an enquiry into wether or not i could do something, based on a response to my previous work. the challenge has proven to be larger than i had anticipated and i have been very close to walking away from it all on several occasions. walking away is easy and if i did walk away it would be a larger failure than if i made something that i didn't like that much. i have to admit to at times not liking what it is that i'm making. the good thing about not liking it, once i've realised i don;t like it, is that i can work to resolve the unlikeness to turn it around to become something i do like. that almost feels like an advice thing waiting to happen.